Boycotts & Books


I think one of the most overwhelming things to do in life is spend a gift card at a book store.

Yes, it is possible to be overwhelmed by a good thing.

The money/book ratio is always off. There is never enough money on the gift card to buy all the books you’d want to read, so you want to make sure you pick out a good one.


This task becomes even more overwhelming when the gift card happens to be the last gift card I ever received and ever will receive from my mother.

I just felt like it should be used to purchase a special book.

With Mother’s Day being this weekend, inconveniently and tormentingly close to my mother’s death, I have decided to avoid all stores that sell Mother’s Day paraphernalia … which just so happens to be every store. I miss her and I want to buy her a present. I can’t, so I don’t want to be reminded that she won’t be here this holiday.

Due to my Mother’s Day boycott, as you can imagine, it was really hard to find something to do or somewhere to go during my lunch break. So I drove around for fifteen minutes before remembering I still had a gift card from my mother from Christmas.

Since I miss her, I thought this was either a really good time or a bad time to spend it. It was really a coin toss, so I decided to chance it.

So began the overwhelming task of picking out a special book.

I found a few series I’d like to try: John Gwynne’s Ruin series and S.M. Stirling’s Change series.

I also batted around getting my own copy of Empress by Karen Miller so I wouldn’t have to sneak my sis’ copy whenever I want to read a passage.

I ended up getting a new copy of the Silmarillion. Yes, I already have it, but I hate the cover of the copy I bought (and that was the least ugly cover at the time).

I found a copy that matches my copy of The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy.

My mom wasn’t a fan of Tolkien or fantasy for that matter, but she’d be happy I got something I really like and will treasure forever. Now whenever I read it I’ll think of my mom … and how much she didn’t like Lord of the Rings.

For those of you who will be acknowledging the holiday, have a good one. Hug your moms. Srsly. I still remember my last hug. It was worth more than all the books on my shelf. If it’s Sunday, and you’re reading my blog, leave your computer right now and go spend time with your mom!



12 thoughts on “Boycotts & Books

  1. Sue Bridgwater

    Sympathies – I wish I could say it gets easier every year, but from my experience that would be to offer false comfort. After 21 years I still shy away from the card displays, and after 22 years, from those on Father’s Day. Perhaps it’s best to give in and take the opportunity to remember. And yes, she would be very happy to know you’d spent that gift card.

    • I agree. I don’t think a day will come when I don’t miss her. I’m just happy to be functioning without her. I think you’re never too old to need your parents. Their loss isn’t something you get over, but something you simply adjust to, i think.

  2. I think purchasing a book that means a lot to you is a lovely tribute to your mother. And I so relate to the avoidance of Mother’s Day displays. For years after my mom died, I got angry every time I was confronted with one. The raw pain has faded, but the ache is always there.

    • Thank you. I think it looks very nice on my shelf. It does make me angry to see the cards. I almost bought her a card and put it back because I thought she might not be here, which she isn’t. No one should have to think things like that. The cards just sort of mock me now. I really wanted to get her something. We might get something to tie on the tree she planted us. But that would be it.

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